February 1, 2009

Coffee and beanie

Today i met Jerene to go for a mind boggling seminar at Suntec Convention Centre.

After that we went to TCC to do our stuffs. Quite a nice place they have there, wooden coffee table, bean bags and array of books on the shelves.

Quite distracting.

But we still did what we came there to do. I did my project, Jerene mugging hard for test on Monday and a friend busy reading map.

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We had coffee to perk us up

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dark chocolate cake treat from a friend

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can’t see but we totally sink into the beanie couch

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camera not doing justice to my beautiful Eiffel Tower wallpaper

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our favourite edc jeans. Best investment so far.

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I had a chance to breeze through the mall and do window shopping. I had not done that for a loooong time now. Felt so refreshing.

Our heels hurt our feet alot but we still like to wear…

ahhh….the price females pay for vanity…

Good luck for your paper on Monday Jerene, Mei Hsing, Chong Chong & Sharon (if you have?) and the others as well!!!

January 31, 2009

Capricorn horoscope

Jerene sent me this horoscope thing, which after i read, was stun at how true it was. Ok amazingly close to true.

Capricorn Astrology December 22 – January 19

Capricorn Strength Keywords:
responsible-patient-ambitious-resourceful-loyal

Capricorn Weakness Keywords:
dictatorial-inhibited-conceited-distrusting-unimaginative

Capricorn and Independence:
Capricorns are very independent because they know their capabilities and therefore
they rarely trust others to finish details, they like to do it all themselves.

Capricorn and Friendship:
The Capricorn is the strong friend, they will always be there to help, they are very
sympathetic, caring and helpful to a friend in need. A Capricorn will get someone
back on their feet again with a steady plan for success and for all this, they expect
nothing in return. The Capricorn friend is deep and mysterious and full of intrigue,
there always seems to be something going on in their mind.

Capricorn and Business:
The Capricorn personality is geared towards that of leadership and achievement, they
always want to climb the corporate ladder and be the best they can be. Capricorns
have excellent sense of time and manage it very well, they are excellent organizers.
Capricorns are very creative, not spontaneously creative but it is incorporated into
their time management skills and their ideas for executing a plan. Capricorns make
good, wise investments because they look at the long term and what will be the most
beneficial down the road.

Capricorn and Temperament:
Capricorns might seem melancholy and stern because they live by self-discipline and
responsibility. They evaluate everything and they don’t take daring chances without
weighing the advantages and disadvantages first. To the onlooker, they might seem
boring but it is the serious drive and structured way of life that the Capricorn feels
safe with. Capricorn’s self-sufficiency is often mistook for coldness, they are not as
cold as they seem, this might be apparent just because Capricorns like to do
everything themselves this way there is no worry about something not finished or not
done properly. It is all about control of their surroundings and their daily lives and
sometimes this spills into other people’s lives. They believe they can give structure
and organize other people’s lives too, which they can but others might see this as
intrusive and not welcome the Capricorn’s suggested changes. According to
Capricorn, there is only a right way and a wrong way to do things and this idea makes
some Capricorns closed minded, stubborn and reluctant to agree with others. This is
an ongoing lesson for Capricorns, knowing that there is more then one way of doing
things and even though their way is usually right, it does not mean that they have to
impose their ways on others.

Capricorn Deep Inside:
Capricorns have this sense of melancholy and necessity for structure and work
because inside they feel they are unworthy and need to continuously prove their
worth. Once they realize that all they need is self-love, door will open and they will
see the world in a new light, one that allows for pleasure and guilt-free fun.
Capricorns most important need is security, financial and material security. This is the
driving force behind their ambitious character and all other personality traits of desire
to succeed. They are very concerned with their public standing and their prestige.
Capricorns are loners but they also need to feel appreciated, but they are excellent at
hiding this truth. Capricorns are very self contained and they have many faces they
present to the world, they are known as aloof and indifferent but this is them
concealing themselves from the world, unfortunately, they may never know who they
really are. This causes feelings of insecurity and causes them to question their own
self worth. Capricorns make it difficult to get close emotionally because once they let
someone in, they do not want to let them go and emotional connection makes them
feel vulnerable yet satisfied at he same time. This is an ongoing internal conflict of
contradictions inside the Capricorn’s mind.

Capricorn in a Nutshell:
Capricorns are very ambitious people, they always have something they are pursuing
and they want their lives to be fulfilled and important. Capricorns are extremely
patient and will wait a long time for something they want, when the opportunity
arises, they will plan their steps carefully to others, they might appear hesitant but this
is not true, they know that there is only one chance to succeed and they are filing
together their information to take the proper steps to accomplish their goal with flying
colors, not just second rate. Capricorns have a very active mind and strong powers of
concentration. Capricorns like being in control of their surroundings and everyone in
their life. Capricorns are very cautious but this only to survey the situation before
leaping in, they will never make a hasty jump in. They accept change but introduce it
slowly so they can get used to it and incorporate it into their life. Capricorns tend to
see life in black or white, definitive’s only. There are no gray areas for these are areas
that are not understood and this makes Capricorn feel uncomfortable. They tend to be
in control in a romantic relationship that way they are never vulnerable to another
person.

What it’s Like to Date a Capricorn Woman:
Deep inside, she is romantic and loving but it takes the right man to expose this. On
the outside, she may seem like she does not care much for love. The Capricorn
woman is perfect for the man who likes a challenge. It will take time to get closer to
her, never make her rush into a relationship. Be patient because she is. Capricorn
woman is very classy, upscale woman. You have to woo her and court her like a lady.
Shower her with nice gifts (but not too expensive, she is a very conservative spender
and expects you to be also). She will dominate and control the relationship but in her
intriguing subtle way, let her take the lead, she won’t steer you wrong! She will lead
the relationship in the right direction because she is smart and practical. She will offer
you a long lasting, real, loyal relationship with all the right ingredients for happiness.

How to Attract Capricorn:
make them laugh, they tend to be melancholy so anyone who can make them laugh is
appreciated. Talk about anything but do not pry into their emotions. They do mind
listening to yours however. When Capricorn feels safe, they will let some of their cat
out of the bag. Talk about serious topics, things that matter and avoid
unconventionality, they are very conventional people and do not like shock-topics.
They like to be connected to on an intellectual level. They like gifts, not gaudy and
expensive but practical and useful. Keep it high class, they do not like second-rate
gifts, or dates for that matter. Plan an upscale date to a art gallery, theater or fancy
restaurant. Never be late. Capricorns are very punctual and live by a schedule and
they do not like to be kept waiting, it shows irresponsibility. Be patient with
Capricorn, underneath that aloof, indifferent outside lies a physical, passionate loyal
person that will come out when the time is right, once you have proven yourself.

About 90% true. The thing not true like the unimaginative part. I’m very imaginative! Of course i deleted out some info like the how to woo the boy capricorn, the erogenous zone and the sex part. Which i clearly can’t prove them.

So I AM conservative…haha

 

January 30, 2009

Take turns

Throughout this life, you take on many roles. Same roles,  different people take turns to it. You can take this role, the next moment, someone else take over. Then you’re switch to another role.

Like how i used to take on the role of assurance to people. Now when I am switch to desperation role. Someone else took over the role of assurance.

Its nice to know that, there will always be people filling in the ‘good’ roles. They can be people near you, or even strangers.

Either way, during the darkest times, you can see who will walk in the dark to look for you.

Thank my friends so much. You know who you are, things that you guys had done for me, said to me to encourage me. I noted it all in my heart.

Derrick: :)

Meredith: :) y?

Derrick:  :) nothing

Meredith:  :)

Derrick: Take care :)

Meredith : you too :)

January 29, 2009

Post CNY 09

My grandma’s CNY dinner is different for this year. We didn’t have steamboat, instead we had Malay buffet!!!

Awesome spread of nasi briyani, mee siam and fish and muttons and black porridge dessert. It was good, so good that before the came over, they were at a MP’s place setting up buffet.

And the Yu sheng was as usual…BIG MESS! By the second or third mixing it was everywhere on the table…but it was fun.

And i get to see my baby cousin, Xin Er…she’s so pretty and inquisitive. Her cry is scary but i love her ‘blur’ face.

I forgot to take pics of her again!

And I’m sure lots of people stay tuned to the Little Nyonya reunion show. Its pretty much the centre of attention.

Anyway awesome CNY celebrations in midst of stressful final year projecting.

I know i was quite a worry wart before and being unnecessary stressful. I realised i was missing out the purpose of this project. Its the process of doing the project. The learning issues, the growing up, and learning how to manage it so as we won’t receive such a shocker when we enter the work force.

Im taking things in my stride now. As long as we did our best, we did all we could. no matter what the final results may be. Blame no one. Only thing we should take from this is a learning experience. And to fully milk out of this process, we should take lots of fun from it.

To make our sacrifices worthwhile.

Happy new year to you all…

thanks for my good friends encouragement along the way

and thanks to a very special support system

January 26, 2009

Happy Moo-ing!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR Y’ALL!!!

Good wishes to you guys…all the best in work, school, monetary, family, friendships and relationships

Most importantly…WORLD PEACE!!!! (someone give me a tiara now!)

I know past few weeks been not my usual upbeaty self. Been getting mood swings alot. Like i’m superly upset and depress and next i’m all fun and jumpy.

I’m sure I’m no where near the mental issues…I mean its only natural to feel sad when you thought of something sad or troubled. Then someone cheer you up, you perk up and smile.

Anyway this year CNY will be different because I am not visiting my father’s side during the day, only going to my grandma’s at night. Because I’ll be rushing for my project. If you’re wondering what I’ve been doing during the weekend, basically escaping the project haunts, resting alot, cleaning alot and dazing alot.

And my handphone kind of loco right now, so sms-es is tedious.

So my steamboat dinner with my family of 5 went like this..usual food, gyoza, shabu shabu meat…and did you see something interesting?

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Close up!

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Smiley star Fishcakes!!!!

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A bottle of white wine from Bliss the restaurant at Punggol Park. I know you saw the hilarity of this photo. My dad tried to use the measuring cup as ice-bucket.

Good one dad.

In the end we did get a proper ice-bucket. No photos. Its in a kentucky fried chicken bucket. Yes…you laugh.

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My doggies wish you guys as well…

and dogs DO have unglam days

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Happy Chinese New Year again ya’ll !!!

~

someone said i am missing out too much

about life

because of the pressure

and stress i gave myself

1 candy bar

and a message

solved everything

~

January 24, 2009

Rules

Taken from Grey’s anatomy

Meredith: [voiceover] What’s worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should’ve healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That’s what we like to think. But that’s not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.

Addison: God wants you to be an adulterer..?

Izzie: God got a virgin pregnant by magic, God isn’t playing by the rules.

Meredith: [voiceover] Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can’t have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. And as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don’t know what they want

Cristina: What am I supposed to say? “I swear to love and cherish you every moment of everyday of my life?” I mean, th-th-that’s not real. I mean, that’s not how it works, right?

Callie: It does, at first, but then it…

Meredith: …It passes.

Izzie: No it doesn’t. You guys are just used to it, that’s all. You already have it, you have that thing everybody else wants. You can take it for granted, but let me tell you, if you didn’t – if you couldn’t be with the person that you love, I guarantee that hearing him promise you to love you and honor you and cherish you, no matter what, it would be pretty much all you could think about.

Cristina: Wait, can you say that again? Just slowly.

Meredith: You’re talking about Denny, right?

Izzie: Right.

 

~

my handphone is not working

telecommunication is out,

just email me…

maybe its God’s Will

crap…

I’ve offended the Gods.

~

January 22, 2009

New specky!

So my right side degree increased but my left remain the same…went to do a new specs and stick back to my signature spider-man goggles…RED

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Following my style icon and my favourite movie character…

edna-mode

I couldn’t carry black so tastefully like her :D

Just 3 more week and our project be done! We’re reaching the goal soon…just one last leg of the race!

And sweet surrpises in the “Cookies of Hope” underneath some cookies are little notes reminding me of all the funny events…

January 21, 2009

Heartfelt

I feel like thanking so many people…

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thanks for the sweet little kitty hamper, filled with Hello Kitty stuffs. Files, bag and 2009 diary. I don’t see these stuffs anywhere…you guys are awesome. Thank you for the belated birthday gift XiuBin, Lixin, HuiLeng, Priscilla, YiTing and Yeeling.

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Thanks so much to Jerenie, Sharon and PeiLing, XinYi & WanJun for this belated birthday gift. especially Jerenie, for going to 4-5 bookstores to find this book for me which I only heard of the title but can’t find the book anywhere. And the earring, this camera just don’t do justice for it but its a really nice velvet green.

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Thanks Jerenie for your long and touching letter..i did tear up a bit…help to moisten my contact lens :D and yes, I’m glad we walk through these 3 years together :D

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I just had to have a close up on this cute little picture of Mickey & Minnie. So hard to see both of them now, unlike when I was still a kid.

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The “Cookies of Hope” that was brought into my hands all the way down in a little red car

“Start by eating from the side everytime you feel really low. By the time you left with nothing but the centre 2 chocolates, you’ve already accomplish everything you’ve set out for…”

And little sms that is so short,but the ‘felt’ is actually deep…

Derrick: ok?

Meredith: no

Derrick: talk?

Meredith: no :)

Derrick:  :)

Thank YOU

I do appreciate it, everything that everyone has done or tried for me. I’m not very good in expressing it out but deep in my heart its all noted down and trying to find ways to thank you guys back.

I’ve broken many rules. I don’t know how to rectify it or if I can correct it. It can’t be undone, it has gone this far. Its wrong, but I decided to play the waiting game.

I’m blessed to have such good people around. Most often they are not physically around, but they are always there, can’t be seen but felt.

This give me a chance to try walking alone and learn from fall.

Thank you so much guys. :)

January 19, 2009

Longer miles ahead

The times now at home seems pretty difficult to handle. Its already so messy, what about the storm ahead which is like 1 week away. I either couldn’t sleep, or sleep too much. Either way, i feel tired all the time. Acting is really hardwork. For someone like me who you can read me like a book, i have to actually act.

I’m trying to pull everything together now. I’m trying to block out all the negativity people are giving me and converting it to strengths. 

I receive another revenue of strength. Actually comes from another person’s misfortune. But it made me learnt something from it. Something which i didn’t see during these stormy weeks. And i hope the people affected will take care, they are really strong and brave to face the situation head-on.

We were once project mates, and I really really hope you continue to be your positive cheerful self soon.

~

Derrick: I missed your steps, probably won’t see you today

Meredith: Right…no smiles

Derrick: Sneak you one another time :)

Meredith: I understand :D

~

January 17, 2009

Deep meanings

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Message:

“…the smiles are enough. Because of the meanings behind it.”