Don’t lie to me…
after some time you do get tired of meeting people and conversing with them…
Sorry I’m to blame to feel that way…recently everythings been one hectic crazy strain on me.
Projects, tests, difficult to understand subjects, facing sarcastic people, rude people, hypocrites, people who looks like they are smiling but actually they backstab you…
Its one cruel human cycle…
I know myself, I don’t do well in competitive environment. I dislike conflicts and office politics stuffs. Who wants to see the ugly side of humans? I tune myself out of their range and tried to mine my own business.
People think I’m oblivious to the surroundings and try to blindside me.
I’m not. I know what’s going on, but i never say anything, I don’t like to make big issues out of such little things.
I smile back still…
then i realised, I’m being hypocrite too.
I’m acting like them too. And I’m doing what others undo to me.
I hate that side of me.
I don’t want to purposely be nice to you just to get you to like me hopefully in future i can manipulate you. When I’m friendly, i do it without motives…I don’t know how people can make friends with a well thought plan thought in their mind.
Lots of people said I’m ‘dao’ or arrogant or cold. I never bother to correct them, because they don’t know me, I don’t blame them.
I tend to warm up to people slower than others. After what I’ve experienced, you think i trust people at the drop of the hat?
If I’m such a meanie, I won’t have friends. My friends can vouch that I’m one crazy auntie.
I changed, because of how people treat me. How do you expect me to smile and laugh along under their snide remarks?
I’m now trying ot be my former self again, at the same time juggling school pressure and other pressure.
To be an air stewardess, facing all kinds of people all the time, expect lots of bitching from colleagues, I can’t handle it. Let me off the plane.
6 Comments
May 27, 2008 at 11:11 pm
yes u are a smelly crazy auntie.
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SMILEE YOOOO Yoooo yooooo~ (echos)
May 28, 2008 at 10:55 pm
hm… office politics.. sad world to have those people around..
May 28, 2008 at 11:10 pm
(bangz)yes…y do those people even exist?why they like to make people miserable?
May 29, 2008 at 9:57 am
its the environment that they are brought up… not enough love from their parents.. having a too comfortable life.. Hmm… a lot of reasons.. I think they need a religion.
HAHA. seriously, any religion that teaches them moral values. Although some religions create selfish individuals who can’t tolerate other religions. Weird right.. even what seems to be good can turn out awful.
SINGAPORE! don’t just teach the kids how to get As for their exams, teach them how to be a better person…AND it should starts as young as possible. HAHA, tagging here is fun.
May 11, 2009 at 12:58 am
Welcome to my world
One advice – don’t let the environment change you. Be who you are, because the first impression is most likely to be the wrong one. I am getting sick of arrogant people, religious people, nationalists, racists, low-intelligent human beings and I don’t make the effort of treating them with respect, simply because I don’t want to leave the wrong impression.
September 16, 2009 at 10:05 pm
Glad to find someone in my world too
I’ll work hard in living my life to the fullest. You do too!