I’ve reached the highest peak and the lowest in just one week’s time.
I thought 2008 was fanstatic to begin with, many more great friends, great people i’ve met, good tests results and many other good news.
I didn’t know each and everyone of it came with a price, that’s so expensive that almost tore my heart like rags.
Just beginning of the new year, i’ve run up a long list of major regrets. Those that i should have done better or things i should be clever enough not to do it.
My 2008 spiritual resolutions:
I will not ask God for true love.
My definition of true love is a one hit commitment.Meaning together till marriage and till old, shelling peanuts together. I don’t care if i let nature takes its course and have to wait till I’m 40 to find my true love. I rather wait for one then rush into one. So far the guys just terribly terribly upsets me.Its makes me almost don’t trust in marriage anymore. But i don’t mind giving the ROM thing a shot.
I will not ask God for good grades
God only help those who help themselves. I studied my head off for the tests to get As.I’ll only ask God for his blessings. We all can produce good results that will stunned the doubtfuls. Its the matter of how far you willing to push yourself and sacrfice.
I will not constantly probe Lady Luck for help
Luck, its something not within any of our control. Its almost non-existent, we can’t see but we constantly feel its prescence.I submit to the fate and hands of God.But if i can turn the tables around, i will do it.I will not be coward into going with the flow.
I will love my friends more
My own experiences and experiences of others gave me one conclusion. Spouses go, hatred and daggers flying about.But friends, they never leave you.They are the ones who we’ll last you through life.
I will not coward myself for anything
One major mistake, regret is all it takes to force out the inner voice in me.Imagine if I died or the person pass on, I’ll regret my life away for not having said simple words of gratitude.
“Thank you” “Hi” “Goodbye” “See you” “Take care”
Simplest words, not over emphasize in our lives.But they carry alot of weight.
I will not ask God for anything
I don’t want my whole life to circle around God-will-settle-it-for-me.Its my life, I’ll command it, I’ll control, I’ll Captain it.Do it well, i”ll pat myself on the back.Do it bad, I’ll slap myself and start anew
I will not spent anymore time mourning for regrets
Just waste time and it does nothing to help improve the situation
Live each day, as a blessing…
Pretty much sums it up doesn’t it?
Everyone are searching for their happiness. I envision my ideal happiness all the time.But i don’t want to put too much hope into it. Right now, i feel happy with my life. I don’t want anything, anybody to enter my life. Not right now. Maybe in 3 years time.
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No one is holding me back
The person who caged the soul
is the only who can free it
that’s ourselves
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